That's enough! You can't blame the kibbutz for your problems!
Why don't you ask yourself what you can do for the kibbutz!
Miri,
don't do it!
Why?
Why?!
Why?
Good morning...
l'm alright.
l'm alright! -Miri?
lt's alright.
Miri... -l'm alright! -Miri, everything's alright.
Come with me now.
You're late for work.
Can you hear me?
What does she want from me? ls it my fault the Swiss guy dumped her?
You devil!
l'll kill you.
Miri, calm down!
Give me the pitchfork!
l'll chop you up!
You maniac! -Miri, put it down or l'll send you back to the hospital!
Go ahead, hospitalize me!
Maniac! -l'll kill you!!
Maniac!
The shoulder!
Stop it! Let me go!
Happy Birthday to you...
Mazal Tov!
Mazal Tov.
Aren't you happy?
l already have a bike that Mom gave me.
Now you'll have a new one. -When are they going to let Mom come back?
Dvir, we had this conversation just the other week.
Your mother needs time.
l want to see her.
She can't see you right now. -Why not?
Dvir, don't worry.
She's in good hands.
l've got to visit her. She must miss me.
Eyal is going to visit her tomorrow. Would you like to write her?
l don't want to write her! l want to see her!
Autumn
Hi, sweetie.
How's Mum?
As good as new. - Really?
Looks great, she's all better. That's why l brought her back home.
She's in the kibbutz?
Asleep. You can see her later.
Will you come with me?
Can't. My draft orders came, l'm outta here in an hour.
You're not coming to see Mom?
Dvir, don't be a baby! l'm enlisting!
When are you coming back? -ln 3 years.
But l'll be home on weekends.
Will you come with me to Mom's? Just for a few minutes?
Don't worry, Dviri.
Go see her every day, make sure she goes to bed early,
and see she's off alcohol and medication.
Dviri...
How are you?
What's that?
lt's the puzzle Stephan bought you.
l wrote him a letter. Want me to read it to you?
Yes.
''Stephan, my love.
l was happy to get your letter.
l want you to know l remained faithful to you in the hospital.
And l can hardly wait...''
How is it so far?
Want to start over?
''Stephan, my dear love''
Comma.
''l apologize for everything that's happened.
And l want you to know
that l love you
and miss you a lot.
Don't give up on me, please.''
Period.
Stephan's left me.
Don't worry, Mom.
We'll find someone better for you.
''From Tel Aviv. 50 years old. An army officer.
lntelligent, and has a car every other weekend''.
And this is his military post address.
He wouldn't want me.
Fine, then l'll write him.
''Young,
kind-hearted,
sensitive,
intelligent,
a perfect dancer,
terrific Mom.''
Don't write that l smoke.
Fine.
Up on your feet! Up!
Get in, coward!
''l swear to the Movement!'' -l swear...
Get in line.
On the tractor! Step forward!
l swear to the Movement. -l swear.
On the tractor! Step forward!
l swear! -l swear.
On the tractor!
Step forward! l swear! -l swear!
On the tractor! Step forward!
Winter
Dvir!
l brought you some kerosene.
We agreed to bring her back, although the kibbutz decided she wasn't sane.
But you have to be careful.
Do you understand?
You have to be careful that what happened to your father
won't happen to you.
What happened to my father?
lt's her fault.
All her fault.
Wanna do something special?
Like what?
Wanna go for a walk?
But it's raining. -Then we could cook something.
Let's go out to the field, get some potatoes and bake them.
Mom, it's raining.
We'll take an umbrella.
You won't melt.
Would you like that?
Yeah.
This is fun! -Say again, dear?
This is fun!
You're fun. You are the best part of my life.
Let's go back. l don't want you to catch a cold.
Dviri...
you're a big boy now.
l want you to know that this time l recovered for good.
Your mother is as strong as an ox.
Mom, what's that suitcase?
l'm going to Stephan. Didn't l tell you?
No. When are you leaving?
ln one hour.
Mom...
You're not going anywhere.
''You are the world, and the world is you.
l need you like the air l breathe.
Day and night, and when l fall asleep.
Dad, l want to hug you.''
Sounds better in French.
Sounds good in Hebrew, too.
Really?
This is from France.
My Dad told me to save it for hard times,
when l can't take it anymore.
l have two left.
Want one?
Are you sure?
Thank you.
Good night.
Don't stay up too late, Dvir.
Have you been drinking?
l'm sorry, l was alone.
And the puzzle is tricky. All pieces are white.
You should go to sleep. -l can't sleep.
Why did he leave me? -He didn't leave you. He loves you.
Why doesn't he write to me?
He will write... l'm sure he will.
Now go to sleep, okay?
Today we will learn about sex.
First, there's no sex without love. And why?
Because two people who have a baby must love each other.
Otherwise, their child will not be happy. ls that clear?
So first there's love, then sex.
But only after the age of 1 8, is that clear?
This is the second time you're late.
Next time you'll be punished! -Take your seat.
This is the male organ, the penis,
and this is the female organ, the vagina.
The brain commands the penis to become erect and grow
and it gets bigger and bigger.
The vagina senses it, and begins to lubricate,
in anticipation of the penis.
The penis realizes this and inserts itself in the vagina,
where all at once it ejaculates millions of sperm cells.
This is how we get pregnant.
So to sum it up:
Love plus sex, after the age of 1 8,
equals pregnancy. ls that clear?
Excuse me.
Have you seen Dvir? -No.
He didn't sleep in the children's house,
so he missed the personal assignment.
They're very angry with him. -Shall l go look for him? -No.
There's lots of work today. Start sorting.
Miri, you got a letter. l just finished translating it.
Shall l read it to you?
''Miri, my love.
Ever since l left lsrael, l haven't stopped thinking of you.
You are the woman of my life. You are my other half,
l could never let you go. l believe we'll work it all out soon
and be able to be together forever.
Meanwhile, you must be strong and think only good thoughts.
Remember, love conquers all. Stephan.''
lf a baby cries, you will hear it over the intercom.
Then you take a bottle of milk and rush over to the baby.
ls that clear?
Yes. -Dvir...
Let's go patrol the fence.
l'll let you fire the rifle.
l wanna stay.
Scared, huh?
Fine.
Just don't you dare fall asleep.
Kids, this is Avram. Don't burn the milk, or you'll fail the assignment.
''l think of you when l get up in the morning.
l write a poem for you before l go to bed.''
''l think of you when l get up in the morning.
l write a poem for you before l go to bed.''
Draw a flower here.
A heart.
A heart's better.
Okay.
''P.S. Give my regards to Dvir. Do as he says, 'cause he's a smart boy.''
Carob.
Mom...
What is it?
l'm depressed.
Why?
l'm alone.
No, you're not.
Everyone is leaving me.
Nobody is leaving you. Look.
You got another postcard from Stephan.
l'm out of Elaterol.
What's Elaterol?
A pill that warms my heart.
When did you start taking it?
After your father killed himself.
What do you need, sweetie?
l need Elaterol.
Why? -For my mother.
l gave her two packs the other week. -She's out.
l can't give her any more. -She needs more. lt warms her heart!
l know what it does, but overdosing can be harmful!
She's suffering, don't you get it? -Calm down.
You have lots of it! Why are you being so mean?
You don't understand... -Oh, yes l do.
This is Hannah, my grandmother, she runs the laundry service.
This is Zvi, my grandfather, who's our teacher.
This is Miri, my mother.
She works in the laundry, too.
This is Stephan, her boyfriend. Owns a restaurant in Switzerland.
That's Eyal, my brother.
This is Jonathan, my Dad.
He died, so that's why he's in a different color.
And this is me. -Well done.
How did your father die? -Ronen! -Sorry.
My father killed himself.
l don't know what to do.
l'm scared.
Let's write her another letter from Stephan.
lt's no use. She doesn't write him back.
So we'll write him in her name.
''Stephan, my love...''
What does she want to say to him?
That she is willing to leave the kibbutz.
That she wants him to send plane tickets right away.
That l love him.
Spring
Thanks, sweetie.
Thanks.
ln the field, we ate nothing but plants,
then we had to navigate in the night.
l was out of bullets, so l pulled out my knife!
Then they put me on the stretcher.
The tank went up in flames,
the chopper didn't show up,
so eventually l got promoted!
Why are you so quiet? -Will you come with me to see Mom?
Dviri, l'm dying to get laid, l've got two hours.
Mom's in bad shape. -l know she is. What can l do?
Want some? - Someone's got to help her. -No-one can help her.
She doesn't want to live, she said so.
Don't worry. Everybody wants to live.
Dad didn't. -Dvir, give me a break, l'm dying to get laid!
Dvir!
l'm sorry.
Sit down for a second.
Don't take this upon yourself.
You can't.
No-one can.
Mom's ill, she'll never recover. -She would if Stephan wrote her.
She can't go on thinking about him.
lt's driving her crazy.
She got a letter.
But l didn't have it translated.
When?
''l'm sending three tickets,
in case Eyal wants to come along.
My love, l can hardly wait to see you in Switzerland.
Love, Stephan.''
l'll miss you.
A lot.
Do you want to come with us? There's a ticket for you.
l do.
We're leaving straight after the fire ceremony. But it's a secret.
l won't tell.
What are you thinking?
l think l love you.
lt's a secret, you see.
We're going straight after the fire ceremony.
lt will be alright. You must hold on for two more days.
Promise me you're going to make it.
Promise?
Promise.
You're beautiful.
We're together.
We're leaving together.
We're together. We're leaving together.
Our Bar Mitzvah graduates, Peach class!
And first to go is...
Oren Slutzki! -Lift!
Pull! Jump!
Well done! -''Oren, my dear, may you be
a source of pride to the Movement and the kibbutz.
May you grow up to be an officer, like me,
and may you always remember where you came from.
We love you very much, your father and mother.''
Well done, Oren. Well done!
And second is...
Uzi Kaplan! -Lift! Pull!
Jump!
Well done! Go on!
''My sweet Uzi, on this exciting day
l would like to ask you, if l may,
to always work hard
and make everybody proud of you.
Always remember, we all love you!
Your Dad and your Mom and all the kibbutz members.''
Well done!
Next we have...
Dvir Avni!
Lift! Pull!
Jump!
''My dear Dvir, on your special day
l wanted to wish you that you'll be a kind person,
that you'll be a person...''
My Dvir...
l tried writing, but it didn't work out.
So l'll give you my blessing from the heart.
My child,
l wanted to be a mother to you...
l wanted to raise you
and to care for you.
But l couldn't do it.
l'm sorry.
lt's not my fault. -Miri. -Wait!
My darling Dvir, l wish you a happy life!
Full of love.
And l hope you run away from this place and never come back!
Let go of me!
Because this kibbutz is death!
Full of evil people!
You must know the truth!
Your father wanted to leave, too! But they suffocated him!
They crushed him!
Until he broke!
lt's a kibbutz of evil people!
They wouldn't let me take you and your brother!
They said l'm crazy.
They wouldn't let me take my kids!
You must know the truth. Run away!
As far as you can! Save yourself from this hellhole!
From these evil people!
Run away!
Forgive me.
lt's for life, Mom.
They're going to hospitalize me. Tomorrow.
l just want to sleep.
Help me.
We could still go away.
We'll run away first thing tomorrow morning.
You won't be hospitalized.
Dvir,
l want to sleep.
Please have mercy on me.
We'll go to Stephan's.
We'll get up and go to Stephan's.
l want to sleep.
Don't you understand?
Can't you understand?
l have to go to sleep.
l'm out of pills.
Help me, Dviri.
What pills do you need?
Valium.
Take care of yourself.
After l am gone,
Spare the gravestone, Save it for a building.
Don't print a book of my life, Save the space on the shelf.
Don't waste a day in my memory. Enough, we have had enough.
Tzipora Shaul,